Being a young mother is hard work. I’ve got a lot to figure out and at the same time, I also have to be very sure that what I’m doing is something that is right. I’ve got to take care of my family at all times. This is why I’m forced to prioritize my time at all times. I do really love being a mom and I have been blessed again I am now able to be a better mom because I’m offered a better job.
I’ve been offered a writing job in a great company. I’ll be working for their corporate communications department. It’s a very good opportunity to get a good income while doing something that I truly enjoy. Aside from this, I also am able to take care of my baby because the company I’ll be working for has its own day care center. This means I am able to have a job and see to it that my baby is well taken cared of. This is actually the main reason why I am moving cities just for a job.
For a single mom, finding a job that enables me to be both a good mom and earn a good income is very hard. Sometimes you have to prioritize being a mom over your job. But I’m very thankful that I am able to get a good job and still be a good mom. This is the main reason why I am preparing everything to make sure that the move will be successful.
Unfortunately, the main problem I have right now is the fact that I will no longer be able to keep this blog. I want to devote all my time and resources towards actually taking care of my child and making sure that I give my job all my talents. I won’t have time for blogging anymore. Because of this, this blog will now be on hiatus. I won’t be blogging for a while. Maybe I’ll get back to it if I have the opportunity to do so. But regular blogging is no longer on the table.
Today I decided to have some time for myself again. It has been awhile and I think I really need a time of. I have been working out and doing a lot of stuff and also taking care of Lily. I think sooner or later, my body is just going to give up on me. That’s why I have to prevent that from ever happening. Again, I am so thankful that Zoe has agreed to babysit Lily. According to her, she doesn’t mind at all because it was a good practice for her when her baby comes soon.
Anyways, I went to the spa today and I even went to have my hair cut. I had my nails done and I was feeling bold so I decided to have my nails done in red polish. I was feeling sexy so why not.
So I just weighed myself and I am so happy that I lost weight! It’s not much but it’s definitely a start. I am so happy that working out on the treadmill has helped me to achieve this. It was an investment and I am happy that it paid off. I can’t wait to continue working out so that I will be able to lose more of my baby weight.
As I am so happy with this fact, I have to rush off and workout more!
I actually loved the book “I Don’t Know How She Does It” by Allison Pearson and I was so excited to find out that it’s going to be made into a movie starring my favorite Sarah Jessica Parker. I just saw the trailer and it’s so cute. It reminds me of Sex and the City but whatever. It’s too bad that SJP is kind of just known as Carrie in the hit TV show. However, I don’t really mind and I am looking forward to seeing her again on this book adaptation. Go check it out guys! To watch the trailer, click here.
Today I basically did nothing but play with Lily. If she was asleep, I would also get lazy and read a book. It’s an all around lazy day for me. But that’s ok, it’s Sunday anyway. I can do whatever I want, although I should have gone out and did some errands today.
My day started out with Lily crying of course. After I had taken care of her needs, I made myself some pancakes and had coffee. After that, the day just went on a blur. I didn’t even do much today but I wonder why my day suddenly ended. Hmm, could it be that I enjoyed doing nothing at all? Haha. Now that would be really sad.
My friend Tasha has been pestering me about going on a date with a guy she knows. She assures me that it won’t be one of those bad first dates since she believes that her friend and I would hit it off. Even if it won’t be for a romantic kind of way, she thinks we could be good friends. Of course, I was very hesitant to say yes because I am really not ready to be in a relationship and Lily is my priority now and not going on dates. But I can see her point on this one. I know that I should start meeting new people right now. It would be good for me, my friends keep telling me. This is true since I have only been with people that I have known for a long time. I can’t exactly remember the last time I had met someone new.
However, I’m still very unsure about whether or not I should go and meet this guy over dinner with Tasha and her boyfriend. What if I won’t know what to do? Gosh, I’m acting like a high school student right now. Anyways, I am going to update you guys whether or not I did go.
Good thing my Mom came over again for the weekend. It gave me the chance to meet with my friends. It’s nice to feel young and free sometimes. These friends of mine all support me and understand my situation and I am just so glad that they do their best to help me out whenever I need them. But at that point, all I needed was for them to entertain me and show me how to chill and have fun once again. I wasn’t exactly ready to be a mom when it happened but since it did, I had to give things up like always going out with my friends and to just do whatever I want to do and whenever I want to do them.
Of course, since Zoe was expecting, we didn’t want to spend the night drinking alcohol and whatever factors that could be bad to her and to her baby. So we just decided to have dinner and then stayed there for dessert. My friends sipped a few cocktails except for me and Zoe of course. It was a great time. We just chatted with each other like old times and we basically tried to catch u with each other’s lives. I love my friends and I am so thankful that I still have their friendship after all these years.
It’s funny how I used to buy fashion magazines. Now, I am reading and collecting Working Mom magazine. I’m not exactly a working mom but there are a lot of great articles that I can relate to. Being a young and single mom sometimes leaves me clueless about certain things. It is really good to find answers in magazines like this. It gives me information on how to juggle my time between work and my child. But also, it reminds me to be able to give myself a breather as well. I know I won’t be able to function all that well if I won’t also take care of myself. If I get sick, who would take care of Lily? That’s why I should learn to be more careful and also pamper myself if I can. It doesn’t mean that I have to go to the spa all the time but I should not also forget about myself and my needs. My welfare is also as important as my daughter’s and in order to be able to look after her the right way, I should also look after myself.
I don’t ever want my child to see me as an incapable mother. That’s why I have been reading up on things that I could use when she grows up. She won’t always be my little girl and I should be ready and prepared to accept that fact. I don’t want to suffocate her of my overprotectiveness. I hope that someday, I will be able to act the right way with her. I am ready to do everything for her.
So I went to the mall yesterday. Zoe happily practiced her future mother skills by volunteering to look after Lily. While I was at the mall, I was just supposed to buy a weighing scale but I am not exactly sure how I went home with a lot of stuff. Well, mostly I bought stuff for Lily anyways so it’s really ok. I bought her new shoes and dresses. I also bought ribbons for her hair. Don’t I look so excited? Lily won’t be able to use most of the stuff I bought her until after a few more months. But like I always say, it’s better to be prepared and but stuff in advance just in case. This is my very positive outlook in life. Or maybe I’m just trying to justify and making myself feel better about buying too much stuff. But really, it’s ok. Lily is going to need everything that I bought anyway and I don’t always impulsively buy stuff. I just felt so excited about everything that I didn’t worry about spending too much money.
Anyway, I will update you guys again soon. I’m pretty tired as I’m not used to going out and about for a long period of time anymore. Till next time.
I honestly enjoy working out. I used to think that after a few sessions on the treadmill, I would get bored or lazy. However, I feel like I am on a roll right now. I feel good every time I finish running on the treadmill. It’s the best exercise machine there is, believe me. You don’t have to go to the gym to lose weight. I don’t have to stick to a strict diet just to lose weight. Now, with cardio exercise and watching what I eat, I am so confident that in a few weeks I will have lost weight. I am so excited for that actually.
In the meantime, I will focus and be really determined to workout. I just have to keep on encouraging myself not to stop or quit this new routine. Life is good and I can tell that my life is finally going in the right direction. Sure, I have had a lot of downs in my life but with the way things are going, there really is that rainbow after the rain. Excuse my dramatic state right now. It has just been really hard and coping was always the way to live. But now, I don’t have to struggle or just thinking about coping. I am finally getting back on the right track and being happy for myself and for my daughter.